Until Next Time, Daddy

My father died last night.

Pulmonary congestion took him. He was a diabetic, had beginning kidney failure, and pneumonia.

We found him on bed, no pulse, no respiration. I did Cardiopulmonary Resuscitation (CPR) for 20 minutes, all to no avail. We still brought him to the nearest hospital, hoping for revival. They did CPR for another 15 minutes, intravenous fluid (IV), and four ampules of epinephrine.

Nothing.

I don’t know why I’m not crying. Maybe because I was expecting him to die anytime… … …but I didn’t think that it would be now. Maybe because I’m a health care provider, a nurse, who has seen patients come and go. I am knowledgeable in the stages of family development, which includes “losing a loved one,” so you could really say that I was expecting it so. Maybe because I know that the most painful part comes after the burial—when you know that everything, suddenly, is different.

Change. Definitely, this death changes most of what I will do in the future.

I have looked at death as the end of the old, but also as the start of something new. Not… … …like this—unaccounted for, empty-faced individuals, absent sorrow, cold air, a starry night, silence.

P.S.: I’ll be offline for some time; I don’t know for how long.

YOUR New Year’s Resolution: Epilogue (7/7)

Before reading this blog post, kindly go over the earlier published blog post, YOUR New Year’s Resolution: Preface, first.

So that wraps up YOUR new year’s resolutions. I do hope that through simple blog-writing, I was able to impart some bits of inspiration for the coming months. Always remember that in every mistake, downfall, or frustration that you encounter, you should always KEEP MOVING FORWARD! Do not allow yourself to remain in a negative state of mind. Keep on moving. Don’t ever stop.

P.S.: So sorry for the short Epilogue. I don’t feel right at all. Read succeeding blog post to know why.

YOU Resolve to Enjoy Life More! (6/7)

Before reading this blog post, kindly go over the earlier published blog post, YOUR New Year’s Resolution: Preface, first.

I’ve watched Last Holiday, starring Queen Latifah, so many times now. I love the simplicity of the story and how it delivers its message: Enjoy life. In the movie, Georgia Byrd (Latifah), is a low-key cookware store clerk when one day, she is diagnosed with Lampington’s Disease (a condition with multiple brain tumors). She is given about one month to live, unless she undergoes a cranial debulking surgery.  Having no means to pay for the operation, she resigns from her job, liquidates all of her assets, and goes on a lavish European vacation to enjoy her remaining days.

…Enclosed is some money for my burial. I would like to be cremated. I spent my whole life in a box. I don’t want to be buried in one.

—Georgia Byrd’s farewell letter

Two points of interest here: An individual with low self-esteem and a life-changing experience.

Keep on reading this blog post.

YOU Resolve Never to Be Late Again! (5/7)

Before reading this blog post, kindly go over the earlier published blog post, YOUR New Year’s Resolution: Preface, first.

Tardiness gets on everyone’s nerves. Simple minute delays can do much to affect an activity. It can change the course of appointments. It can also destroy how one person gets along with another.

I have a friend who is known among our group for being late for a few minutes … … …to over two hours! (It’s the same friend talked about in the earlier blog post, YOU Resolve to Quit YOUR Vises!) One time, me, this particular friend (“Ms. Late”), and another friend were supposed to meet to pick up a wedding gift. As usual, me and my friend were at the rendezvous at the exact time, while “Ms. Late” was nowhere in sight. We texted her and she said that she was on her way. After one and a half hours, “Ms. Late” finally appeared.

Keep on reading this blog post.

YOU Resolve to Be Financially Stable (4/7)

Before reading this blog post, kindly go over the earlier published blog post, YOUR New Year’s Resolution: Preface, first.

Money cannot buy everything, but it can be a good start.

During the past year, money was difficult to come by. Sales have dropped, salaries were cut back or were never increased, and many were displaced. Spending power weakened while debts and interest rates continued to increase. It was difficult coping to the new economic situation.

As a nurse, I experienced the effects of the economic crisis. Demand for nurses to work abroad decreased. Because of the downturn, countries implemented a “nationalistic attitude” when it came to employment. World powers prioritized giving job orders to their own healthcare providers. An example of this would be Obama’s healthcare bill, in which priority employment is granted to African Americans and Mexicans; Asians are excluded. All these events discouraged the healthcare workers in the country from their aspirations of working overseas. It’s evident—reports on the number of nurses leaving the country state that they have decreased, while the number of RNs reviewing for the NCLEX, CGFNS, and IELTS has also dwindled.

With the decrease in job orders, almost everyone started having financial trouble.

Keep on reading this blog post.