I wrote this poem when I was feeling depressed over a paternal conflict. I’m so glad I’m sooo over it! 🙂
Here I am with a heart in disarray.
A swirl of ideas and emotions
Haunting me until tomorrow’s sunrise.
Afraid that tomorrow might be worse,
I look beyond the turmoil
Yet all I see is reality.
When all I wanted was change,
Was all torture my only choice?
Was all pain a consequence of my actions,
When I stood amidst the deafening noise?
How about the one who lies
In a seat of overflowing authority?
Never was I content of his rule
Still, I obliged to his request.
Now that I had the courage to be set free,
He blurted out a weapon
Thus, setting me again in chains.
Was I wrong, Lord?
The lighter side of me voices out,
That I was all along.
Yet the stronger never concedes without a bout.
Help me, Lord.
This war drives me senseless.
My hands want to kill
Either him or me.
But you are there,
Warding off the venom of hatred
But the wounds are difficult to bear.
The word Gulo is a Filipino term equivalent to the English terms: disorder, confusion, or being disorganized.
I received this message more than a year ago and I never did erase it.
What if the life cycle was all backwards: You die first, get it out of the way, live in an old age home, get a silver watch and go to work. You work 40 years ’til you’re young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do booze, get laid, you party, and get ready for high school. You go to grade school, become a kid, play, and have no worries. You become a little baby, go back into the womb, and spend your last nine months floatin’. And, you finish off as an orgasm. Cool, ‘no?
Mitch Albom’s book, The Five People You Meet In Heaven, has given me the perspective that all lives are connected and that every action intertwines and affects one another. This book has also opened my eyes to the fact that one story differs from every person’s point of view. This was exactly the premise worked upon by Vantage Point.
Vantage Point’s primary events take the world’s attention: an anti-terrorism summit in Salamanca, Spain participated by the United States president, Henry Ashton (William Hurt). Before the President gives his speech, he is shot twice by an unseen assassin. After a few moments, two bomb blasts occur, the first of which is somewhere in the distance, while the second goes off in the summit itself! It is in this plot that the characters and other events revolve around. The delivery style is far different from typical terrorist movies. The film presents six points of view (six persons), all happening within 23 minutes before the bomb blast, which gradually reveal the story to the ultimate climax. A single persepective of a certain character is presented, and then rewinded 23 minutes back to present another perspective.